God bless me with so many friends that holds me up when I'm down. Their encouragement and support really helps me a lot. Thanks to johan, didit, tiar, retno, nay, hikmah, and irfan, I feel a lot better yesterday and today.

I admit it, I feel kinda down. I feel hopeless with myself. What is really wrong with me that most of the ones I love just rejected me down. I watched High Fidelity starring John Cussack yesterday at sonny and ney's. The film really taught me about how men tends to think. Sometimes they're shallow, sometimes their to spontaneous, sometimes they just plainly stupid, sometimes what they think to be the unmost romantic thing they ever said is actually the ones that are very romantic indeed. Sometimes even men can feel a deep remorse when they made mistakes, at least they once a while think about it also. They're not as rational as they say they are, and men are tend to think only the short term effect. They're not that futurism after all.

what my friends did to me well.. It feels like pure magic! Once I'm sad, the next thing u know, I'm already popping up smiles!! ahahaha ... It starts with nay, then hikmah who gave me lots of hugs and kisses. Then johan said that he wanna listened, and last night he SMS me to cheer me up. After that comes tiar and retno from their writings in zorpia. irfan also came up with silly SMS. But the most of all is didit. She actually cried with me, being my shoulder to cry on [yups!!! I can finally cry!!!! After all these times]. I told her my secret ... yups that big secret that I have been holding back real tight. Then she SMS me with cute yet meaningful words.

when I went home.. I look to the sky and gaze at my home.. The stars :p it looks even more beautiful when I'm sad and down. Then suddenly.. It hitted me. God created these stars so that at a point of time, He can talked to Abraham and told him that Abraham will have descendents as much as the stars above. Those stars means promises to him. And it works the same thing to me. Those stars means promises for me to. God keep his promise to Abraham, He'll do the same thing to me. Watching the stars twinkling reminds me of my friends. How they always seems to twinkle for me on my deepest moments, to cope with me and fight with me all the way. The biggest friend that I have is Jesus, He's the one who bless me with all of these thoughts and warm friends.

He just never stop to amaze me :') When i red God's Daily Promises this morning, I get the same thing...

You are important to God

Is that really true?

"When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers... what are mortals that you should think of us?... You put us in charge of everything you made..."

A coincidence? I dont think so.
Thank You God....